thursday - power and influence - four of pentacles
the lord of earthly power, sun in capricorn.
this card is about my relationship with money. somehow, money always seems to find its way to me, and in a way i feel obligated to share it as much as possible with people less fortunate. so that’s what i tend to do whenever a new unexpected batch of gold coins ends up in my lap.....
due to my adhd brain wiring i never have a clue about how much money i actually have or where it has ended up once it’s gone. so i tend to go on giving and sharing even when my (digital) wallet is empty, and i tend to end up with debts that totally surprise me.
at the moment my extended family is trying to get the message through that i should start spending what’s left of my last windfall on myself and stop giving it away. but what’s more boring than that....? just like that guy hanging on to all his coins, totally uninspiring....
still, i am trying to listen to their warnings and keep at least a little bit of a nest egg for unexpected hard times.
today i can clearly see the relationship with the planet, because i know my money (though i still cannot really see it as MY money) has really made a difference in the lives of some people, and that feels good. money can be a very powerful ‘tool’, especially in such a materially obsessed world as ours.
the card shows an important looking business man, holding on to his precious coins. i found a couple of similar cabinet cards, all with men that look rather full of themselves. the kind of guys i simply cannot stand, because they are spiritually empty (yes, i know, very biased...lol!)