I'm having a weird, powerful time. Seen from the outside, my life is uneventful - not much work right now, not much pressure, only self-applied pressure. Within, many relationships around me re-arrange themselves, not always on pleasant lines. I'm deeply connected to all involved, often more so than they are to me, and I feel pushed and pulled emotionally - powerless to change anything but powerful as listener and empathizer.
Six of Wands for yesterday, Wednesday, the day of communication. And WHAT a day for communication it was. I communicated all the time, took everything in. I don't know whether there was much of the blessed Tif'eret - Jupiter - Leo constellation in my day, but I have given all I could and overcome some bitter feelings. Towards midnight, I won a little victory over myself.
And for today, there is my beloved Temperance, connecting Tif'eret and Malkuth, i.e., I'm on a continuous journey around the Tree. Jupiter's Day, the day of power relationships - let's see whether i'll feel it today. The card is amazingly beautiful with Artemis and my letter samech and the integration of solar and lunar energies, fire and water. I feel exhausted and not muuch like an integrator but we'll see.
There is so much I don't understand around me. Isn't it weird, all my life I have strived to understand others but I don't understand a thing, a person, I feel the depths of my not-understanding and maybe that's the key to wisdom? The book, which I opened only now, talks about wisdom. Maybe I didn't dive deeply enough into Yesod, the lunar realm of dreams and fears, although I can't claim that I'm anchored well in the world of pragmatism and practical competences - or motivation and ambition that drive one forward - or much of an intellectual. So where should my wisdom come from? Temperance is such an encouraging card. It tells me that we never get results, only processes - i knew it but it's good to hear.
I really feel myself falling in love with this deck. It's an Air deck in my collection (I have my decks sorted into drawers according to the element that I feel characterizes them) but like every deck, it has all elements within it. But the sharp lines, the simplified human forms and features, the clear contoured colours and the diagram background of the Tree make this such a clever, clever deck. So Airy, so brilliant, so un-fuzzy, such an inspiration.
I start to think about next week Let's do the fuzziest of the fuzzy then and read with the Celestial
